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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
When vain desire at last and vain regret Go hand in hand to death, and all is vain, What shall assuage the unforgotten pain And teach the unforgetful to forget? Shall Peace be still a sunk stream long unmet, Or may the soul at once in a green plain Stoop through the spray of some sweet life-fountain And cull the dew-drenched flowering amulet? facade-x reminiscing 23:09 + + + want to live a life without regrets.. but that is insanely difficult. want to be able to forgive and forget easily.. but am not so generous. want to be more articulate..in most aspect.. but somehow, i cant. want to have a stronger faith.. but am too lazy and afraid. want to stop lamenting (and am currently doing that. arghs) and take some action instead.. but again, am too lazy. want to be able to know what i want and set all out to do it.. but never have the strength nor perseverence to do so. want to do and be so many things but am just way too idle and gutless. in short, i want to be able to live my life to the fullest..at least somewhere near there.. but i just simply lack that courage, the strength, the wisdom, the faith and above all else, the peseverence to accomplish and achieve what i want. arghs..basically, im a typical (i think) 17 yr old that does not have a clear goal in life and am no where near living my life as i desire and am currently simply living my life on a day to day basis. and at the end of the day, would just feel totally unfulfilled and unsatisfied with myself.. and wonder what have i been doing my entire life. and now after all these, im still the same. ahahs.. sux. theres always that sickening "but" i need to implement changes in attitude wise!! term 2 onwards shall be different.. at least the "trying" factor will be stronger.. hafta be realistic facade-x reminiscing 22:40 + + + perhaps one way to a deluded.. yet happy life . ignorance . isolation . indifference . non-intervention a wk is way too short this is not called hols..neither is it term break. its shd be called term catch up..or sth.. facade-x reminiscing 12:28 + + + |
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