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Thursday, August 25, 2005
room light gave up on me. no way of studying!!! oh well. retribution for laughing at sk. haha. thus, shall sidetrack from the whole wk of intense madness and bask in some means of destress. so heres a pic of 2T06 with a few small touches. haha. hm.. pretty blur but oh well.. no idea how to make it bigger and clearer. click on it for the 2nd pic.. the one with the "big reina" haha! anw, this photo's called "the funny reina one" 0r the "after". May has yet to lend me her "before" to upload.. haha.  facade-x reminiscing 23:53 + + + really glad and thankful that i have friends who are willing to listen to me whine and lament at very much nothing significant. so thankful that they're willing to take some time off their busy schedule to come look for me and care abt whats happening in my life, despite all the chaos and stuff thats going on in theirs. even more so for them making me comfortable enough to bawl like crazy in front of them and making no sense at all with my attempts to talk in between sobs.. thats just so damn humiliating. haha. and of course, extremely grateful for them just being there. please dont feel useless or anything just because u dont know what to say or what to do.. cos honestly, no matter how cliche it is, its enough just to be there... and joining in my cursing. haha! how sinful = truly appreciate the simple 'how are u' and stuff..esp frm those who arent used to things like that! haha. just nice to know pple bothers and care ability to control my temper and emotions has drastically gone down these days. flare up at the slightest thing. horrid. dont know if im simply stressing myself or sth.. truly going insane. sigh.. really sorry to those whom i've pissed off in my derangement. despite really liking history, its nonetheless driving me mental! oh. globalisation of cold war. that reminds me, i actually dreamt abt vietnam, korea and middle east last night. pure delirium. facade-x reminiscing 00:47 + + + finally caught charlie and the chocolate factory last yest with dear old darlink. simply love tim burton's sagacious and morbid humour and not to mention johnny depp! i realised that perhaps even watching movies can be a form of temporary escapism. haha. different movies bring different kinds of experience. happy shows induce joy while sad stories compel sorrow. sometimes its quite ironic how despite knowing that u'll be upset after watching some stupid sappy show, u're still impetuously drawn towards it.. for perhaps that heartwarming yet somehow sad feeling. but sometimes its also quite disheartening even after a happy movie cos once that moment has gone by and reality sets in once again, u'll start to reach for that pipe dream and it all just boils down to a flight of fancy.. perhaps always trying to find that Neverland? but nevertheless, watching movies is still good no matter what! facade-x reminiscing 01:47 + + + cant believe a simple medical consultation at a regular clinic could cost u a whole $117. goodness. so i've got a severely blocked up nasal system and stuff. really gross actually.. its so bad that since the nasal passages are blocked, the eyes become a substitute for the stuff to come out from. haha. purely disgusting. sickness is in the air facade-x reminiscing 00:06 + + + |
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