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Thursday, September 22, 2005
Livin' la vida Mickey! haha. there was actually an mtv on that. 1st post prelims day. happy happy happy. heck abt how prelims went. nvm abt how i din study as hard as i shd have or whatsoever.. for the moment. simply nothing more relaxing than that immediate post exams period. sweet mysterious period of time before the killer comes. shall just cherish this short moment and then start it good next wk. oh yea tree planting mission next week. yay! facade-x reminiscing 20:21 + + + why be envious if He's being generous finally 2 papers left and yet 2 of the worst papers in my case. oh heck. no mood left to study anyhow. as enob says just "think and die" think the amt of slp i had over the wkend totally exceeded the amt i had the whole of last wk. bad. cant seem to get back into working mode again. but oh well. in any case, sunday Masses always serve to be revitalising. somehow what e priest said yest seems to be so aptly applicable to e current predicament. so whats the point of being envious when He's being generous. not getting what i want right now will eventually pay off in the end. though its always been on my mind, i've finally came to the conclusion thats its finally time to let it go, forget abt the past and focus on the present! why dwell on the past and try to figure out what i concluded i cld nv figure out unless i do actually carry some concrete action. but..haha..oh but. so thus, i'll always be simply turning round and round, going back to that starting pt and digging my own lil pathetic lil grave. so must as well just look at whats in front of me currently and let it be, accept it and be glad. no more guessing games. yes, it'll take time. but this time, its said and planned with resolution. it doesnt matter how i dun understand how all it started, it no longer matters why in any case..its only impt now to set the priorities right. so however cliche it may be, its seriously time to let the past pass, and work towards that future which will be..hopefully.. all the more brighter. abandon whats not impt, focus on As and have faith in Him cos i believe that whatever it is, He'll only present it when its the right time. but as i've said..it takes time. and therefore, i'll only seriously start to work insanely hard frm nxt wk onwards. last wk was just way, way too much. haha. endless excuses. but with all determination, most procrastination shall end by this sunday. yay facade-x reminiscing 20:45 + + + just remembered sth Fr. Bosco said "being idle is different from being lazy" and what point do i have to make? haha.. i dont know. guess am just amused to find out that being idle is really different from being lazy cos idle is having nothing to do yet desperately wanting to find sth to do yet being lazy is just purely dont want to do anything despite that immense amt of work. yet is this ever confusing and lackadaisical world, everything just get lumps together into one generic meaning. anw, amazing race and survivor are backed! perfect timing. facade-x reminiscing 20:56 + + + another 3 papers down 4 more to go maths was a pure misery. got so damn demoralised not even halfway through the paper. had expected this week to pass in a wink. yet somehow, after a million blinks, its still this week. its a wonder how every bad thing can coincidently occur at one particular period of time. perhaps its a culmination of events, or perhaps its just out of pure coincidence. whatever it is, its abhorrently distressing. facade-x reminiscing 13:09 + + + 1 subject down, 3 more to go. 2 papers down, 8 more to go. 1 essay down, 16 more to go. gp compre passage was pretty interesting. it discussed the appeal of horror movies.. that how we're perhaps instinctively drawn towards it in our bid to prove that we're not afraid.. etc etc. in any case, i found the passages so interesting that it took me forever to read them, trying to take in all the concepts raised. haha.. its sorta like what they teach us in lit actually. all abt human nature crap and stuff. oh well. anyhow, i realised that we must never belittle the wonders of stress and its effects. its horrid really to take one's frustrations out on others just because that oneself cant cope with whatever's that happening. sigh. but really, perhaps nothing much can essentially be done to prevent that cos its just all part of human nature and unless u're insanely magnanimous or whatsoever, its inevitable. so i found myself a de-stresser. in all seriousness and bewilderment, he seems to be the only one least affected by the immense stress thats settling in everyone. while everyone else is struggling in their state of derangement and fair share of insanity, this boy (seems to be able to) take it all into stride. u just dont know whether to admire him or be amused with him.. haha. so thus, Soon Kiat aka Princess Diane (the funky boy on the right) must be given that due  recognition that he so deserves. hahahafor the story of Soon Kiat, visit sewei's blog. facade-x reminiscing 23:05 + + + decided to add some colour and change the pic of the template. more colours need to be induced into the otherwise dull and dreary near-exams days. =( stupid thing took me forever cos my blogger page is STILL in ancient chinese!terrible. imm tmr. hope i can con my mum into buying a new desk on top of the new bed, table lamp and a/c. sigh. chances are indeed as slim as non. = facade-x reminiscing 09:17 + + + |
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