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Saturday, October 22, 2005
insanities of all insanities insanity no. 1: house will be undergoing renovation for the entire this coming wk. insanity no. 2: maths tutor will be gone frm nov. 2 to nov. 7 and maths papers are on nov. 8 and nov. 10!! insanity no. 3: worst of all, am still no where near ready faints. facade-x reminiscing 21:10 + + + was flatly told that: "it was shown right there from the beginning.. but i dont know why, until now, u're still hovering ard here" finally sunken in.. right straight to the bottom. the guilt is simply too much to bear . sigh.. cant qt pinpoint it, but its not pleasant. theres a huge sense of regret as it is, dont wish to have more at the very end need my weekly sunday revitalising sessions facade-x reminiscing 20:17 + + + woke up with a absurdly swollen eye today. no idea why. had to skip lit class which i cant believe i actually felt a sense of regret. As has totally consumed me. have come to love early mornings. bright and cheery brand new days, bringing fresh new hopes where we pray for a better, more fulfilling and meaningful beginning. everyday sets out to be like that. thats how i've come to yearn for mornings. want the night to pass and that morning to come. and even though every day seems to be a repeat of the day before, theres still always that new hope lingering in the new day to come... but. this means one day closer to that dreaded event and one day less to salvage whatever thats left to salvage. as i've said, A's has totally consumed it. it better be all worthwhile at the end. facade-x reminiscing 23:28 + + + finally graduated from cjc. its odd really.. been waiting for this since the beginning of last yr and yet, now that its here, it seems unreal.. and almost as if i dont want it to happen so soon..in a sense. 2 yrs just went by like that and i cant believe it'll all seriously be over soon when we're done with As. dont mean to get too sentimental, but in between all miserable and unbearable sch days, there were the fun and memorable times where great new friends play a huge part in making them so much better.. and sometimes, sad. it would take forever to list every single thing down. hahah. oh well.. hm. perhaps we'll only truly come to cherish it when we look back upon those days 10 yrs down the road. haha. oh well..as weird as it may be, think i'll act miss it.. perhaps contrary to most of the pple cj. hm. so there was grad day and last class dinner before the As. everything was great...besides that sickening nagging thought at the back of my mind the whole entire day reminding me how As are just a few wks away and not to mention the amt of work due the very nxt day after grad. anyhow, marche's an extortionist and i think we made it clear to everyone there that it was the last day of sch for us judging frm the amt of photos we were taking. haha..oh well. so that was a day to be remembered and now, its back to struggling for As and till then.. its.. sigh. facade-x reminiscing 15:40 + + + |
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