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Sunday, November 20, 2005
2 more papers. it just seems endless! started a whole 2 wks ago and im still in the midst of As. so all the hard work, every single sarcifice, every single stupid move into one single horrendous subject..or rather paper, perhaps, just went down the drain. hah. wonderful. others had their worst exams during CTs, midyrs prelims when they cant do all 4 qns. me? i choose the As. yay. the final paper that almost entirely determines my future and one single paper that tests u on every ounce of effort u placed into for the past 1.5 yrs..at least 1. well.. what can i say but dumb dumb move to drop econs and still plainly refuse to study international economy.. maybe just that sheer laziness. ugh. so there goes that tinge bit of hope for that only A i cld perhaps achieve..at least before the As. there almost seems to be a sense of tragic waste. haha 2 more just 2 more and... i hafta take another test the day after lit paper. basic theory for driving. oh yay yay. perhaps just perhaps i'll be able to drive to sch to collect my results. haha. till then theres still 2 more papers.. and a whole lot of fun.. and time to regain that sanity and life thats slowly and painfully draining away as each min passes. UGH. facade-x reminiscing 09:35 + + + maths was purely horrendous. gp was surprising. lit p1 was the usual.. if only i studied harder. halfway into As and life's almost fully gone. fell sick over the wkend. fever went up to 38.5 and continued on even till the night before lit paper. horrifying. went for the paper and fever came back..during the paper itself. however can that happen. ugh. history lit history lit. thats e schedule till e end of As. ah. i just cant wait. its so depressing and scary i think i may die of anxiety before the end of As. haha. think some philosopher once said "a sign of a nervous breakdown is when u think the whatever u're doing right now is the most impt thing" sth like that. think im approaching a nervous breakdown. yay. oh. found sister but found her too late. booked air ticket for korea for the 6th thus bye bye america. the wonderful wonderful wonderful times right after As facade-x reminiscing 22:55 + + + haha. realised i made it sound like i was going to so many places. nah.. it'll make my mum's wallet die of heartache. its just either taiwan and japan, OR taiwan and US.. but nevertheless, leaving for taiwan on the 30th! right after grad night. haha. yea. maths on tues but did history today. cant believe myself. just cant seem to put any emphasis on maths even though i know thats where i shd place the most effort in =( in a wk's time, i'll be done with 2 subjs.. out of the 4 i take. oh yay and help the house is totally filled w pple. insanity. had to deal with a thousand greetings and "been such a long time" "u look more and more like ur mum" etc etc.. just to go get dinner. sigh facade-x reminiscing 23:46 + + + 2 days more.. not even 2. ahh. but in a brighter light, its not even a month more to total freedom! Taiwan, Japan, US. i simply cant wait. once As starts, its gonna be over so so soon i doubt theres even room to breathe. so gotta press on and pray hard. oh i so seriously need God's help now. first ever gastric flu in my entire life last wed. i still dont understand how can one's gastric get a flu. doesnt make much sense to me.. odd name. but anyhow, it was simply horrendous. puked like crazy even though my stomach was void of food. saw the lil medicine capsules coming right straight out of my mouth 30 mins after i put it in. and so the cycle continues. thus, entire day of slping and no work. doc said stress frm As has taken a toll on my gastric. hah. it has taken a toll on me since i dont know when. stress stress stress and yet, nothing vividly significantly substantial seems to come out of it. sigh. and till now, still left a whole lot of chaps untouched and unfamiliarised. and thus, with that said, its time to stop whining and make use of the time to do sth worthwhile instead. nxt mth at this time, it'll be allllll gd. facade-x reminiscing 17:04 + + + |
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